How many excuses are accepted, before a person gets so sick of hearing excuses that they snap? 100? 200? Not sure, but I am at the 'snapping' point. It really, really sucks when I think of how many times I have sat here, waiting for a call or a text, with absolutely no response. I deal with it over, and over, and over, and over again. No excuse, no matter how true or what the reason, is no more than that - a bullshit excuse.
I hate caring about someone so much that I can't wait to hear from them. Will do anything to not miss their call. Will rearrange my schedule to spend time with them. Because I am yet to be in a relationship where I get the same in return.
Relationships are difficult and most of the time do not work because men are fucking idiots. No one is perfect - and I am sure there are plenty of women out there that have too many issues for anyone to want to deal with. But from my experience, it is the men that just don't get it. I want to put in 110%, believe me, I do. But there comes a point when a person realizes that no matter how much they do, no matter how good they are to others, it just isn't going to matter. People do not change. Even if it is going to cost them everything, it still isn't enough to motivate them. And at this point my friends, I am losing my give a shit. Starting to care less and less. I am almost completely depleted of every ounce of goodness that is left, and there will be nothing left for me to give. It happens this way every time.
